FU

2011.




Stared off with a bang. Not. A guy kissed me. I really thought he was interested. Honestly. I did. I have never had someone kiss me before on the New Years, and he seemed different. You know, he went to Vintage Faith, I would see him here and there with different groups and so on. He kissed me, and then we kissed a lot. But then when I asked him what that meant he basically said its hard to not be physical when its with someone as fun and cool as you, but lets keep it friends.

I'm sorry, Really? Are you pulling the fun and cool card that I have heard so many times in my life? When has fun and cool become so boring and uninteresting? I am different, cut the bullshit, and give it to me straight. You are too little of a boy to be man enough to tell me you fucked up.

Its so weird. I remember growing up and hearing an argument my Dad and older sister had about men, and my sister yelled, "men are dogs!" And my dad was so offended and hurt and basically they got into a huge fight. I never ever understood my sister and why she would say that..BUT, now I do. Men are dogs. They hurt. They sting. They burn every goodness and honesty that exists within the heart of a woman UNTIL you meet that fun and faithful guy that doesn't see you has just a fun and cool girl, but wants to keep you and never loses sight of you and imagines all the adventures one can have with another. And lastly, never wants to lose sight of you because you two will help each other grow to holiness and get to Heaven.

Lessons to Men:

Im not just cool, or fun.
I am not just a friend, or okay with just being friends
Don't ever kiss me unless you mean it to be more.
Even though I am easily fooled, Don't fool me.
I am quick to forgive, but i do feel my heart hardening.

(And just has your sister is basically boning someone on the lastest video from Enrique and how much that bothers you, imagine me telling my brothers of the foolish things you did. They would kick your ass.)

Cheers to 2011. Jesus. I have no where else to go except to you.