Hello Friends.

I write my feelings. The words speak to me, eventually leading me to Truth. Light. Life.Salvation.

God is real. present. and active. If you will Him, He will act and move you through the storm.

There is a point to suffering. Suffering has brought me freedom.

I am hopeful for you.

To begin this new adventure with blogging I will share with you four of my favorite poems I wrote.

October 15 2008

So this is what it feels like.
To be imprisoned by your own actions.
To feel suppressed and immersed in a
pool filled with abuse, lies, and filth.
So this is what it feels like.
To be an object, kept down by unstoppable desires.
To feel used and pathetic.
So this is what it feels like.
To be covered in a vicious and burning poison of guilt.
To feel worthless.
So this is what it feels like.
To be a young woman in a society
filled with men who lust.
To feel hopeless.

Grab my hand. So I can breath the sweetness of your air
and the fragrance of Your peace.

Pull me out. So I can feel the security of Your protection.

Hold me tight. So I can feel Your mercy.

Walk with me. So I can live in Your Hope, Love, and Plan.

So This Is What It Feels Like.

October 20th 2008

I still feel
I still hurt
you will not win
I still am me.

I still feel
I still hurt
you are filled with lies
I still am me

I am not just a redhead
I am not just a girl with freckles
I have thoughts. I am worthy.
I am important.
I am gifted.

I am not an object
I am not just a girl
I have opinions. I am.
I am a woman.
I am a daughter.
I am a lover.

I am Mary.

October 27th 2008

education doesn't define me
what does?
I feel, I move, I think.

Applying to college
I feel is one step away from being me.
If feeling could be a degree
I would be graduated

I feel deeply. I feel my soul.
A connection to the Son and the Father
I feel. I move

If feeling were a degree
I would have graduated.

Lord, feelings of Joy, Compassion, and Suffering.
Why can't that be a degree
Those ARE things to be learned from
Those ARE things people lack knowledge in
Those ARE things that make me strive to learn and be a better human being

If feeling were a degree
I would have graduated

Date:unknown

to be unknown
unknown of the gifts
The gifts that I feel and give
Yet are unknown.